Yeh I know that Spidey, and I'm a strong believer in the power of positive thinking and self belief. But sometimes ****e just happens, and even the strongest of people can suddenly feel weak/vulnerable/worthless. My problem is I've always been the strong person in all of my personal relationships. I'm the one who helps people--even strangers--and gives them advise, never the other way around. If I have to cry I will do it alone, if I have a problem I hold it inside until I've worked it out myself, without external influences. I don't want people to be disappointed in me, because I'm already disappointed in myself. There really is no worse critic than the person we see when we look in the mirror. I reveal more of myself on this site, to my friends here, than I ever do to people in my real life...that's sad, genuinely.
Despite everything I've just said...I will be fine.I start back at work tomorrow (today when this is posted) on a new surgical ward, so that should be interesting. It will be good for me to feel mentally and physically stimulated again. I'm also going to rejoin the gym/zumba this week. Hopefully the natural endorphins will enhance my mood because I can't continue feeling this unhappy...but more importantly, I WON'T continue this way. I'm a fighter and will bounce back, so y'all better watch out. Phew, that was quite a rant from the wee English chick huh?? Done bun can't be undone!
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Hope everyone has a great week ahead, next time I drop in I promise to bring some peace~loving~hippie~chick vibes with me. Stay cool folks.![]()





I start back at work tomorrow (today when this is posted) on a new surgical ward, so that should be interesting. It will be good for me to feel mentally and physically stimulated again. I'm also going to rejoin the gym/zumba this week. Hopefully the natural endorphins will enhance my mood because I can't continue feeling this unhappy...but more importantly, I WON'T continue this way. I'm a fighter and will bounce back, so y'all better watch out. Phew, that was quite a rant from the wee English chick huh?? Done bun can't be undone!
Your description of yourself is spot on for me! Keep your head up, girl! I hope your first day in the new environment went well? My Oscar party last night went extremely well! WooHoo! Lots of laughter and joking all around! I came in second place (yes, we did the ballots and voting thingy for every catagory) but two people tied for third so I disqualified myself so that they could each have a prize (after all, I was the host). I do believe that this will become a yearly tradition with my newer friends out here in Spokane like it was with my friends when I lived in Seattle. (of course bribing them with prizes helps........

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