Is there a doctor in the house?

[marew1]

Try checking colleges in your area for clinical psychologists and who may also be hypnotherapists.

[aneaglesangel]

Hmm, wonder if they have any relaxation tapes on amazon. I'll have to check into it. The other thing that keeps me from totally relaxing is this stupid back of mine. Always in pain lately. I don't think taking a pain killer would be a good idea since I'd probably fall asleep instead of just relaxing, LOL! These are great suggestions and I will try, it's probably quicker if I can do it on my own! Hugs all!

[Bryan James]

I would suggest a combination of ideas already posted above.

Close your eyes and think of a lit candle for a while. Whatever color you want, mine is offwhite/ivory/eggshell; It's not the color that matters, but what you prefer.

Once you have that image set, maintain the image. By now you've probably gotten into a regular deep breathing pattern. Recognize that. Keep the candle, but count, starting at one. Every "in" breath is another number. Go to nine and start again at one.

10,11,12 is not a failure, but just a reminder that you need to focus less on focusing.

Not recommending this music for such an exercise (indeed, none at all would be preferable), but Dream Theater's "Scenes from a Memory" is a Progressive Metal rock-opera concept album that intensely covers a similar situation.

Good luck,
When God shuts one door, he doesn't open two others. Kick the first door off its hinges.

BJS

[michal]

Hi,

Well, I'm certainly not a doctor, so.....?

But I would recommend you learn some meditation techniques, which should at least help give you some peace IMO.

And the best way to do that IMO is to contact some local Buddhists.

Just my 2c.

Long days and pleasant nights

I'm not s great believer in hypnosis, which is doesn't mean I don't believe in it, simply that I think it is a drastic measure that should be considered dangerous at times. Being hypnotized to get read of sleep-problems is to me like unnecessary plastic surgery.

But, I strongly support JohnDalglish is his idea of meditation. As someone with a LONG history of insomnia I found that certain techniques really helped me getting over the barrier. I haven't tried specifically Buddhist methods, but I'm sure that there are many types that can help.

Good luck getting to sleep. Those endless toss-and-turn nights are a real nightmare.

[aneaglesangel]

Thanks guys this is all great advice. I wish it were as simple as getting to sleep. I can do that pretty well, I'm exhausted, LOL! What I really need is to get to some memories that a spirit showed me. When I first met April it was around February of 2007 and at first I didn't know how important it was. I became her in the dream. I was in the back seat of a car, surrounded by boys. Then I was on the ground, surrounded by feet, in a big parking lot. Not long after I began to get attacked by negative entities. I have been bitten, whipped, burned, you name it. I have pictures of marks I wake up with and no, there's no reasonable explanation for these things, I explain better in my book, which I can't finish until I resolve this. I also did some recordings in my house. I have a death threat, they call me and my partner tramps and call me a dumb "beeyouch." If I had realized when this first happened how important remembering April's death was I probably would have paid more attention. I have had dream contact many times with spirits, but even for a paranormal investigator it can be hard to sort these things out. I didn't realize there was more to April until the time I followed her and got jumped from behind. Then I found out who she was and that she met with foul play, but that her killers were never identified. I think it's very important to April's spirit that they be identified. So important that she's willing to be stuck between the planes being chased by things. So important she'll drag me into it.

Now in a way, I have a vendetta. These things, whatever they may be, ruined my life as a child. I refuse to let them win. I have to help April, it's my nature. I can't let them win, and I can't let them have April. I know, sounds crazy, but I have no explanation for any of this, or how it's even possible. I only know it is happening. I know I'm not crazy. I have to do this.

Now I am very good with meditation techniques, but when I'm not in pain. Pain is a pretty much constant thing in my life now because of my spine, so it's sort of slowing that part down. I've practiced meditation to do some of the experiments that I've done with psychics. When conditions and pain levels are right, I'm pretty good at it. So between pain and the fact that two years have gone by since the initial spirit contact has made it very iffie that I will be able to recall this. I am running out of time and things are growing worse. That's why I say hypnotism is the answer. Let someone else drag it out in a quick session. Let me get the information I need and maybe April will "cross over." Maybe she won't. I don't know as of yet.

[aneaglesangel]

Wasn't sure if I'd run out of space. I did find a contact. Amazingly he's the "Cult Cop" who worked on the "Cult Murders" that happened here in my area during the 70's. (That's a Stephen King story in itself, I'll have to tell you about that someday.) He does hypnosis and he's familiar with the paranormal. I am awaiting a phone call from him and I'm hoping he's willing to help. He has the background on the case and we'll go from there. I'm also hoping he can help me remember some of the fights I've had with these things. I only remember bits and pieces. The way I've come to look at it is this. The memories I have are not "brain memories" they're more like "soul memories" for I'm not in my body when this happens. I've gone astral somehow. It all sounds pretty crazy to me, and it's happening to me. But I don't have all the answers, I don't have an explanation. I only know the little I can remember and the scars I wake up with. Like I said in my introduction when I joined this message board, sometimes real life really can be scarier than fiction. I guess the best I can do is hope that my book gets published and then invite you all to read it. I try to be open minded. I try to give everyone who reads it the option of thinking for themselves and I admit that I don't have the answers. But I give you a full case history of my past and my present. I lead a very scary "Stephen King character" life, but I will not live in fear. I will stand tall (all 5'3" of me) and true, I will try to find answers and I will do the best I can to fight back. I will not give in.

If I have a day when my pain abates a bit I will try to meditate. I just haven't had one of those days for a long time. Other than that, I have to go forward with this hypnosis and hope I can dig the faces of April's killers out of my "soul memories." It's the best I can do. That's why when I introduced myself, I ask if I'm a gunslinger, or something else. I will fight, it's the only thing I know how to do!! Hugs and thanks guys!

[BlackThorn]

Wait? Has it ever worked before? Have you ever helped in paranormal stuff? I'd try to click with another psychic before you tried to get too involved with a hypnotist.

Stephen, is that you being silly again? J/k... :P Hehe, hey, look at it this way, in another few years, after TAPS branches out a bit, you'd be able to call their sister show, TAGS. They'd hook you up.

OMG, there was a girl in the paper today, maybe you mean her? She went missing in town here in 2006, and they just found remnants in well nearby, they're saying they're pretty sure is her. They're testing them in Augusta today. She musta been like... 28 or so? Although I don't think she was from my class, I didn't really recognize her or the name too much really.

Watch. With what they have for tech these days, I'd put money on them catching the guy.

[BlackThorn]

Hmmm... I don't think her name was April...

Nope, her name was Francis.

http://pressherald.mainetoday.com/st...64305&ac=PHnws

[~Ally~]

Believe it or not, I have a diploma in Hypnotherapy

Aah, so thats how you get so many ladies to fall under your spell...you hypnotise them into thinking you are a stud.