Vent your frustration thread

[Anton177]

I don't know if any of you will need this thread but dammit I do. It's been a real dusey of a week, an act of pure human f**kery, and if I don't do something about letting it out then I may take it out in a less desirable method.

I am living over in a country called Cyprus right now and away from my home of England in the UK. I've been here for 4 months playing in a guitar duo with my friend who lives out here. We had it going real good for two months, we signed with an entertainment agency over here that got us all of our gigs and took a cut and all we had to do was show up and play. We had good nights, bad nights; we got paid, and a pretty decent chunk of change. All of a sudden this bossman agent turns around and says he has us no work. I don't understand that, since so many places loved us and would be happy to have us back - he just doesn't have a pluck where to put us since he doesn't know where to put his finger unless it's up his ass. He apparently has over 300 acts signed under him and they're all getting laid off, too. What a kick in the balls.

So if it wasn't so bad that I fled country to try and pull myself together and maybe spend some time relaxing, only to get a good thing going and have the dark man walk on down the road and have me lose my job with the words: "Oh no, you didn't think you'd sort yourself out that easy, did you now, kiddo?" - if that wasn't good enough, my friend gets offered a bar job and takes it. Now, most of me doesn't mind, since I'd do the same thing in his position. His girlfriend gets in from England tonight and he wants to take her travelling so he needs the cash. Okay, I get that, but I sure feel left in the dark. "Okay, that didn't work, see ya!". He comes in today which is the first I've seen of him in two days and had the nerve to tell me to look for a job since he didn't want to do the two gigs we have left a week. Okey dokey. A-ok. Friggin A. Super.

Now the real irony of the month. I loved this one, happened not even an hour ago. Real side tickler, this one. I'd like to say right off that I'm awful with people - I'm not a social butterfly, as you may have already guessed. I thought I would be pretty bad at doing a bar job and would enjoy it even less, but I thought I'd bite the bullet. So I rode down to a bar on the main strip with a "Staff Wanted" sign on it and asked the owner if he needed anyone. He said he had a girl coming in tonight, he was okay right now, but then passingly offered me a job for 600-700 euros a month. Alright, sounds good pops, what's the catch? The job is being a PR, and for those of you who don't know, it's standing outside the bar and acting real nicely to the couples and the families and the girls wearing short skirts and telling them to come and waste their money on your particular bar. I have always loathed the ideal of that job, and pitied the saps who do it, but dammit it's a job I can't do. I'm not a people person, that's why I read books for God's sake, and if I somehow managed to work up both the balls and the morals to take the job I'd probably get sacked within two days for not being any good at it. Call it social retardation, I don't know.

On top of this I'm a psychological mess who hasn't been able to find a girl for the past 2 years while I still find the time to dream (and wake up not knowing how to get out of bed) about the girl that broke my heart two years ago, of which I've been trying to come to terms with ever since. It's a pathetic excuse of a broken man probably trying to look for sympathy and lick his wounds so he can excuse himself from doing absolutely anything comparable to a life, and I've stripped down my ego and pride just to say it. I don't know where I'm going and I cannot abide not having a plan, I have no clue of anywhere remote I'd even like to aim, I don't know what I want and I'm sure as hell not happy, and for what feels like forever I'm left with the feeling that the ball is not in my court to play. I could have had a lot worse things happen to me in my short life but at times I think I wasn't supposed to do anything else but get my hopes up and fail to mould into the pessimistic cynic I'm becoming who is void of everything that people claim is important to a healthy life. Most of all I miss being able to wake up after a nightmare and have someone there to remind me it was just a dream. Hell, if I am at the point to write such an awful line as that, then I really need some help.

Oh, and after finishing The Stand today I have no more books left to read. I may finally go insane.



If anyone else has the urge to press their fists into the keyboard instead of the wall, the stone is yours to carve.

[PatInTheHat]

Ain't no bidness like show bidness huh?:biggrin2:!

Ya know, t's really the same gig as a midway or old timey sideshow talker ("barker" is an incorrect term used by suckers...uhh marks...uhhhhh patrons..yeah yeah, that's what I meant...good decent high quality customers is what I'm sayin':rolleyes:) or pitchman, and not a bad gig if your any good at it I think...matter of perception I suppose.
Great way to build up your patter and master the art of sarcasm in way's I can't even describe...gotta make 'em like it, and I swear they'll beg for more..people are so weird!
You can use it as an opportunity (hell, you can use it for therapy:laugh:), if you look at it the right way:oo: (no I said right), and keep your eyes open and ears peeled for info & angles that will help you get to where you want to be.
Afterall, it is in the same genre of business, entertainment, just a different view of the venue.

Got nothin' on gettin' laid in Cyprus...sorry:down:.
Rock On!!!

[tempest]

I do not have any personal experience with the entertainment business. But I have noticed that reading many very talented and successful entertainer have set backs and humble beginings. And often these experiences help the fame that comes later.

Hope things bounce back for you. Hang in there

[FlakeNoir]

I'm so sorry your heart has been broken, Anton. Life can be so hard sometimes, it's true. Somebody once taught me a trick to use whenever something really bad happens to me. Try to imagine that your life is a metre long ruler. (You're English, right? So the metric thing will work.) Zero being the time of your birth and one hundred cm being your death. Go to the number on the ruler that you first began feeling so bad. Trace your finger forwards to where you are now. Notice the size of that measurement. Now, look at all the time that came before this heartache - there is quite a lot, isn't there? Take your finger and move it from where you are now - all the way down to the end of the ruler - see how much more road there is yet to travel? It's all unmapped right now and yes, there may be other trouble ahead from time to time... but there is a real possibility that the rest of your 'ruler' may hold the best times of your life.
The young adult years are so tough, (((Anton))). But try not to lose heart - you seem to be such a nice person and I think if you keep giving all that you can, then good things will come to you.

Flake. :)

[themadone06]

Its hot and humid, and I am in college and can't afford to turn the airconditioning on! Plus the dog wakes me up every morning at six.

[BlackThorn]

I love those types of greeters. I love anybody who's forced to deal with me in their job. My theory is this. "You're gettin paid to serve me, so smile big, and get ready to deal."

I had an incident with my bank recently. Let's just say, their machine is extremely greedy when it comes to bouncing fees. Simply enough, if one check bounces in one day, instead of paying off the $2 purchases first, they line it up so the biggest is first, second biggest goes second, etc... therefore, if something bounces, like, if a company with your card numbers decides to gather some money from your account during an unusual time of the month for them... then if the $100 dollar check bounces, then all the $10, $5, $2, purchases you made that day, also each earn you a $35 dollar bounce penalty fee.

So, as I was dealing with these bank creatures on the phone, listening to them try to tell me I deserve to pay over $100 in fees for three days worth of bouncing (by the way, they inform you of problems by snail-mail letter, so you're already accruing lots of fees by the time you even get the letter)...

And at one point, the woman (escalated support I think they called her) said to me, "well, all you're doing is being sarcastic and attacking the fee policy of our bank, so we're done with this conversation, right?"

Immediately, I settled down. I calmly asked her to go over what was wrong. Again. "So, explain this part to me. Okay, now this part. Hmmm, I'm an engineer, so let's look at it from THIS angle now too..."

I was prepared to keep her on the phone for another hour, or two, or five. You want that $35 out of me? Fine. I'm gonna get it RIGHT back out of you. How much do you make an hour hun? You don't mind if I call you "honey" right? Since we're STUCK on the phone together now...

Same thing with ignorant police tickets. I got a ticket the other day for not wearing a seatbelt, in my buddies old truck that probably had skanky old gum and pine needles caught in the seatbelt itself, and wouldn't even work. I didn't wanna reach down in that seat... and we were only driving four blocks away...

You wanna give me a $120 ticket for that. Fine. I already objected it once, I'll appeal a second time, and I'll make you pay for an entire jury trial, if I get a fraction of the chance. There's no way in hell those two trials are gonna pay for that hundred dollar fine, and hell, I might even get it thrown out too. JUST by pushing it to trial, the State Trooper has to take time off from his busy schedule of handing out hundred dollar tickets trying to be our 'nanny', and come to the courtroom, and fight his case. How much is that for drive time? How much do they get an hour? And if they don't show, hey look! It gets thrown out. Awwwwwwwwww, you didn't follow through kitten. How you gonna help pay your greedy gov salary that way? :'(

You wanna screw me, FINE. Let's all go down together. I had nothing better to do than be vindictive anyways. ;)

[BlackThorn]

I told the first guy, before the aggravated tech support, when he kept insisting "you can fix this. Just go pay the $208.28 in fees that will bring your account back to the positive."

I told him, "Look. I feel like I'm talking to a piece of wood, and I can't continue this conversation without being physically in your presence. I need to see your neck in front of me if I'm gonna listen to one more moment of drivel on how to solve "my" problem...

They ended up refunding every fee too. Mmmm, Money. ;)

The last one was like, "look, just so you don't have to call aggrivated technical support again and spend an hour on the phone with the, over thirty five dollars, I'm just gonna refund it now, I'm gonna write in our branch, and write it as 'bank error'.

Yeah, maybe it's only $35 dollars, and I make tipple that an hour sometimes... but it's MY thirty five dollars. And blood will flow over trying to take what isn't yours from me, buddy. Count on it.

[Emdee]

[QUOTE=Anton177;304695]

I'm not a people person, that's why I read books for God's sake, and if I somehow managed to work up both the balls and the morals to take the job I'd probably get sacked within two days for not being any good at it. Call it social retardation, I don't know.

QUOTE]

SAME-O

It's really frustrating to be a not-a-people-person. Everyone demands that you should be talkative and extrovert and I honestly can't be.

[CorbinKale]

Anton177,

If you haven't read The Shawshank Redemption (yes, I know that is not the complete title, don't flame me :laugh:), now would be a good time. I wish you the best.

[youngfibre]

I vented this in a thread a few minutes ago. Can you imagine those f..kers at CNN timed it to announce Micheal Jackson's death at 12 midnight?

They have been having a bloody wake for him over an hour since i turned on my TV.

Breaking news my behind!

sorry ms Mod i cant type straight with tears in my eyes

[sherryw]

thanks for this useful place. i'm sure i will use it from time to time...but to you all i say hand in there. it is always darkest before the dawn. things will get better....if not come back to the states and i'll hire you because good people are hard to find and you have already impressed me because you want to work!!!!!!

[SKfan2006]

lets see, there's been nothing but triple digits all week, i've been getting paper cuts every day at work where sometimes i don't even realize i got one, and i'm not getting paid overtime since the department i'm working in takes alot of hours but they don't understand how many hours it is so they're only paying me for 40 hours a week at $8 an hour by the month. so because of the 40 hours thing i finally get time off that isn't the weekend since i've already put in 40 hours.

[Anton177]

Things are looking a little more up right now. The first day I went out I went all along the main strip asking in every bar and got a "no" from every one. Today I've went around the hotels and got a better response. I asked to see the manager in one and filled out an application and had a kind of mock interview. That might turn up good. There's also another bar who took my number, said they'd let me know... so fingers crossed. There were two places looking for a chef - a shame I can't cook!

Thanks for all the pats on the shoulder, too, everyone. Really could feel myself slipping back into depression for a couple of days and I'd had to beat that back with a hammer. Hopefully a little luck will come my way and cut me a break. My regards to everyone else, too. :smile2:

[Natjen26]

I'm getting married in less than three weeks and we decided the whole like a few weeks ago (and before you ask, it's not because I'm pregnant that we're rushing it :biggrin2: We're both not fond of planning very far ahead)

So there we are looking for rings. Finding something we like, but they had to order the right sizes, ok no prob. I ask how long it would take and it could be between three and four weeks. Considering being wed by that time, it was a bit of a problem. I presented it and that was when I had to calm myself. The look on her face. Horrid!!
Looking at me, like I was knocked up or something.. This is unusual she goes on, mostly rings are ordered about six months in advance. I keep smiling and tell her that 6 months ago marriage wasn't even on our minds.

While this fun conversation is going on, I notice my husband-to-be straying away. I don't think nothing of it and continue with controlling my temper and the conversation at the same time. Ok, so long story short, no rings. A serious setback and to top things of I get blamed for it by my partner. He felt ashamed that I told it was in three weeks.

Well, sorry, you were right there when we set the date. Men, can't live with them and can't live without them.. (Well, I couldn't)

Wow, I feel better allready!:grinning:

[pandora]

Frustrated that only the young guys ask me out. Don't want a chew toy, I want to meet someone nice and at least in my age range.

[arista]

My frustration today is people who are oblivous to the fact that other people in this world exists. My gripe-Toilet paper. Why is is so difficult for someone to put on the toilet paper when it is empty? Why do they assume that the coworkers in the office are responsible for changing the roll and not themselves? Points to ponder.

[Anton177]

The two places that gave me a "maybe" have turned that into a "no".

I have tried all the hotels and got another resounding "no".

I will try some more places but I am pulling at straws now. I think I'm going to have to go back to England, and try and look for a job there and get the ever popular "no" a few dozen more times. I feel very listless right now and just about ready to give up.

[Lily Sawyer]

Am contemplating several newsletters at the moment:

1. Big Breaks for the Unemployed
2. Food for the Cat or Food for You? Life Decisions for the Unemployed
3. Surviving Financial House Arrest for the Employment-Challenged
4. Homemade Muzzles for Alarmist Pundits
5. and the one that seems likely to get my vote:

Hire Me Or Drop Dead

At the moment, there's nothing an AK-47 and a rooftop can't cure. Good thing I'm anti-gun.

[Bad Bear]

Hell is other people, heaven is other people. What to do?

I seem to have sorted out the former as I've got older and have been less compelled to seek out friends for the sake of it. Now I know only who I want to, and it makes for a less stressful, more enjoyable life. It helps that I've become something of a hermit, of course. :)

[Perse Jr.]

It drives me crazy when I'm in the check-out line at the grocery store, and a clerk opens a nearby register and yells "I'll take whoever's next in line!" and the schlub behind me runs over like a bat out of hell when I'M the next in line.

Yeah, maybe I should say something, but what would that really accomplish? I'd end up probably more annoyed and furious, or feeling like a loser 'cause he'd come back with something like, "my wife's in labor!" ARRGGHH!

[CorbinKale]

It drives me crazy when I'm in the check-out line at the grocery store, and a clerk opens a nearby register and yells "I'll take whoever's next in line!" and the schlub behind me runs over like a bat out of hell when I'M the next in line.

Yeah, maybe I should say something, but what would that really accomplish? I'd end up probably more annoyed and furious, or feeling like a loser 'cause he'd come back with something like, "my wife's in labor!" ARRGGHH!

That is one of the more common manifestations of Murphy's Law. I have decided that the best course of action is to pick a register line, then stick with it. If someone elderly, or with unruly children are behind me, I let them ahead. It seems to have a calming effect on the whole register area and, hopefully, builds karma. :) I'm no altruist!

I am quite certain that if I switch registers to one with a shorter line, the register will break. I know, because I have tested the theory. :down:

[Lily Sawyer]

How about someone who jumps in ahead of you with several items, with a fake smile?

The fellow behind me and the cashier were appalled, but I wasn't willing to die on that hill that day.

[arista]

What about those individuals who are numerically challenged and can't count the items the 10 items or less lane..& then they pay with check..

[poisonbat]

Grocery stores are one of the most frustrating places on earth. I had one man get very annoyed at me because I was helping a little old lady get her stuff out of the bottom of her cart and the cashier had finished ringing up my order. It may have taken a whopping 45 seconds out of his life, but he was mad. I told him that she needed help and if he did not like it, to change lanes. :glare: Giving a few seconds or minutes of your day to help someone in need sets the stage for a bright outlook on your day. I don't care how many people I pissed off that day, I made her day and that is all that matters.:wink2::bat:

[phidgt]

The thing that irritates me the most is the utter lack o awareness that so many people have these days that there is an entire universe going on around them. Hello, you are not the only person on this planet.

I live in a tourist resort town and have to put up with people stopping for no apparent reason. They stop in the middle of entryways, intersections, and sidewalks. They stop in the middle of the street. If you're not paying attention you will literally walk right into these people. The entrance to the grocery store is the worst. Are these folks lost? Are they confused as to where they are? Have they not quite made up their minds as to where they wish to go?

It truly boggles my mind.

[opeth]

I hate my job. It's driving me nuts!!!!!
Feel better now. :glare:

[harvester_of_sorrow]

we were given two hands...use em not just for music. Sorry to hear about this. life can get pretty unstable and crappy. I'm in the sheeits too. Been looking for a job. no luck here in chicago. house not too far from forclosure. bills going into collections. no health insurance. ahh..things just add up ya know...and always at the wrong time, but hey, it would always be waaaaaay worse so i try to keep my chin up and face things one at a time.

[arista]

Men who play games. I don't mean scrabble. Why is it that some men seem to find their fulfillment in playing games?

[Patricia A]

The two places that gave me a "maybe" have turned that into a "no".

I have tried all the hotels and got another resounding "no".

I will try some more places but I am pulling at straws now. I think I'm going to have to go back to England, and try and look for a job there and get the ever popular "no" a few dozen more times. I feel very listless right now and just about ready to give up.

I've been in your shoes before and it is HARD to keep your chin up. It seems like everything's lined up against you. But it's really not, and if it is it can't go on forever. Life gets tired of fekking with the same person for too terribly long.
You can do this. You'll get through it if you don't give up.

Have you considered teaching English language to the Cypressians?
Just a thought, kinda helping you grasp at straws here LOL.

[Lily Sawyer]

I forgot about the cops at the Burbank airport. They crawl up your *ss if it takes you longer than 30 seconds to help a friend unload luggage from your car, if you've pulled in next to the terminal. Never mind that your friend has on an obvious back brace.

Pigs.

[opeth]

Someone died and I didn't really care, to be honest.
I didn't know the guy. He was a friend of a friend.
Why should I get all cut up about a random guy I don't even know?
I don't think that makes me a bad person.
I have friends who couldn't care less when Heather Ledger died.
I think it's the same principle.
If you have a cause that's fine.
Don't expect the whole world to support it.
I'm not the devil if I don't.
I have my own life and my own problems.

[Bryan James]

An alligator shat my hat, and a frog peed my pudding.
I'll wager my meager net worth that the sun rises tomorrow.

BJS

[Terry B]

What about those individuals who are numerically challenged and can't count the items the 10 items or less lane..& then they pay with check..

How about the cashier who is coupon-challenged. We got one who placed all my coupons neatly in front of her then challenged each item as it came through as though I was trying to gyp her out of 50 cents.

[Spideyman]

How about the cashier who is coupon-challenged. We got one who placed all my coupons neatly in front of her then challenged each item as it came through as though I was trying to gyp her out of 50 cents.

Had one like that at my grocery - key word "had". I had to place the coupons under the item, sticking out just a tad, so she could see them matched.

[arista]

My frustration today involves security. I can appreciate security as much as the next person. However, going to the courthouse today to supposedly obtain a copy of birthcertificate for my son to take driver's education. Well, they practically made my son strip to get through the detectors. Only to find out it was not located in the building that we had to go to another building. It was just frustrating.

[Lily Sawyer]

I live 5 minutes by car from Forest Lawn Cemetery, where Michael Jackson's funeral is being held this morning. It's scheduled to start in 4 minutes.

There've been helicopters hovering since 8:30 this morning, with flyovers as well. It's like freakin' LAX in my 'hood.

All due respect to Mr. Jackson, I am REALLY over it.

[poisonbat]

Ok, I don't usually get really REALLY MAD but I am mad as hell this morning. There has been a hedge (a privacy hedge) that has grown between my house and my neighbors house for 35 years!! Without as much as a word, they are ripping it out and building a brick wall there:glare: They did not give me the courtesy to even discuss this with us. Mind you that this thick ivy hedge makes part of my back wall for my dogs yard. They simply ripped it out taking with it my fence, gate etc. But worst of all, I will have to look at an ugly block wall out my window from now on instead of the beautiful hedge that has been there all along. NOT a friggin word from them. I woke up to the sound of a jack hammer as they are tearing out their patio and driveway as well. I really thought that they were nice people for all these years, I can not believe that I was SO wrong.:down: Ok venting done.....:bat:

[Anton177]

After deciding to go back to England I'm left to waiting around until the flight. 1 week down, 1 to go. I've spent far too much time doing nothing, but there's nowhere to go and I need to save money. I'm bored out of my ever-loving mind.

I don't think life is the pursuit of happiness, it's the pursuit of being busy. Quite simply, because whenever we are not busy, we want to kill ourselves.

[LadyPain]

The new system that has been implemented where I work has turned a job I love into one I dread. Some bean counters in head office decided to put a system in place that is going to make the place run more efficiency. In other words, they took away hours from a place that was already struggling to get the required work done, added a bunch of administrative crap that has to be done on top of the regular work and demoralized most of the staff. I was given three shifts worth of work last night for one shift and I was EXPECTED to get it all done. I added 'walk on water' to that list, and put beside it that I tried.

Shoot.... I was barfin' my brains out at work last night and I think it was from the stress. Today I feel kind of crappy and I realized that I popped a vessel in my eye, but it doesn't show unless I look hard to the left.

I have two days off now. Today I am going to make soap. I am going to play deaf and not touch the effin' phone. I refuse to let work invade my days off.

I have to hang in there because I need that job badly, but my heart sure as hell won't be in it anymore. I just want to get through my shifts without having my stomach bleed now.

I'm just a body to them, and I must remember not to let it get to me, but when I am stuck there looking at a list that makes me want to cry, it's not good. I am so lucky to have some friends here, one in particular, who help me find my way back.

As for work... *rudeness coming**lifts a particular finger in salute*

[Lily Sawyer]

Poisonbat,
Ask them if they plan on leaving their cars jacked up on cinder blocks in their front yard as well.

[phidgt]

My grandmother is currently in extremely poor health (cancer) and my boyfriend, my mother and I have been tending to her needs. This is a 24 hour job, but not what I'm venting about.

The three of us decided to take a quick hour for ourselves and enjoy happy hour at a wonderful local bar/restaurant. A friend (uninvited) joins up with us and proceeds to complain about a client who fired him. Here we were trying to have a little break since our lives have been in complete upheaval for the past month and now we have to listen to this putz ramble on about his "bad day".

In between his ranting his cell phone rings, not once, not twice, but three times! Does he excuse himself to take the calls? Oh no. He answers them right there at the table. Freaking unbelievable. I just wanted to scream at him, "My grandmother is dying! Do you really think I give a damn about your day? And thanks for ruining what was supposed to be an attempt to have some fun."

What I find so incredibly insensitive about his behavior is that he knows what we are currently going through. It's amazing how self-centered people can be.

[arista]

My grandmother is currently in extremely poor health (cancer) and my boyfriend, my mother and I have been tending to her needs. This is a 24 hour job, but not what I'm venting about.

The three of us decided to take a quick hour for ourselves and enjoy happy hour at a wonderful local bar/restaurant. A friend (uninvited) joins up with us and proceeds to complain about a client who fired him. Here we were trying to have a little break since our lives have been in complete upheaval for the past month and now we have to listen to this putz ramble on about his "bad day".

In between his ranting his cell phone rings, not once, not twice, but three times! Does he excuse himself to take the calls? Oh no. He answers them right there at the table. Freaking unbelievable. I just wanted to scream at him, "My grandmother is dying! Do you really think I give a damn about your day? And thanks for ruining what was supposed to be an attempt to have some fun."

What I find so incredibly insensitive about his behavior is that he knows what we are currently going through. It's amazing how self-centered people can be.

I am sorry to hear about your grandmother. Yes, people can seem like they are all about themselves so much of the time.

[rose key]

Sorry about your grandmother, Phidgt. I never fails to amaze me when people think that they are so fascinating when they talk about their personal problems. This friend shouldn't have burdened you like that even if nothing bad was going on in your life!

[poisonbat]

OK I have had just about all of my stupid neighbors that I can stomach. Not only have they fallen behind in putting up said wall, but they have started storing their freaking cinder blocks and morter on MY DRIVEWAY. There's is clear for them to park, but ours?? No they put all of their materials on my driveway to store them. I had to park one of my cars on the lawn because there crap is in the way. NOW I a soooo pissed. :glare::bat:

[Moderator]

Seems to me you'd be well within your rights to ask them to move it and if they don't, then you've got some strong young men to help you put it onto their side where it belongs. :smile2: Not that you should be the one to do it, of course, but you don't need to put up with it on your driveway either just because they're being inconsiderate.

[Kim L.]

I don't work for the state of California, but this is outrageous:

"SACRAMENTO, Calif. -- Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger has proposed an additional 5 percent pay cut for thousands of state workers, who are already forced to take three furlough days each month.

Meanwhile, negotiations over closing California's $26.3 billion deficit are on hold as Schwarzenegger and Democratic legislative leaders have no formal plans to meet.

The three furlough days per month amount to about a 14 percent loss in pay for state workers; add on 5 percent, and California's state workers would lose nearly 20 percent of their income."

Cali is in big financial trouble and the legislators & governor can't even get it together to talk. This sh*t has been going on for over a year.

[JohnDalglish]

I don't work for the state of California, but this is outrageous:

"SACRAMENTO, Calif. -- Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger has proposed an additional 5 percent pay cut for thousands of state workers, who are already forced to take three furlough days each month.

Meanwhile, negotiations over closing California's $26.3 billion deficit are on hold as Schwarzenegger and Democratic legislative leaders have no formal plans to meet.

The three furlough days per month amount to about a 14 percent loss in pay for state workers; add on 5 percent, and California's state workers would lose nearly 20 percent of their income."

Cali is in big financial trouble and the legislators & governor can't even get it together to talk. This sh*t has been going on for over a year.

Hi,

'We are all just prisoners here of our own device' ?

Long days and pleasant nights

[phidgt]

OK I have had just about all of my stupid neighbors that I can stomach. Not only have they fallen behind in putting up said wall, but they have started storing their freaking cinder blocks and morter on MY DRIVEWAY. There's is clear for them to park, but ours?? No they put all of their materials on my driveway to store them. I had to park one of my cars on the lawn because there crap is in the way. NOW I a soooo pissed. :glare::bat:

I agree with Ms. Mod - just move the stuff onto their property.

Neighbors can be such a pain in the rear. They can be an endless source of frustration. Here's my latest issue:

I live in out in a rural area; dirt roads and unpaved driveways. My driveway is shared amongst three houses and was in pretty sad shape after having suffered through several years of spring snow melt-off. Everyone agreed to fix the driveway, estimates were made and a company chosen and the bill would be split three ways. I paid my share ($800), the lady across from me paid her share ($800), and the neighbor who lives at the top of the drive paid $100. :oo:

[Lily Sawyer]

Hi,

'We are all just prisoners here of our own device' ?

Long days and pleasant nights

In L.A., it's more like 'jokers on the left, fools on the right.'

[poisonbat]

I simply can not take much more. My daughter decided to give me the verbal bashing of a lifetime this weekend, all because I wanted her to come to visit me. I am heartbroken sick and lonely. :down::bat:

[tempest]

Sorry to hear that poisonbat, hang in there.

[arista]

I am sorry to hear that poisonbat

[Lily Sawyer]

I simply can not take much more. My daughter decided to give me the verbal bashing of a lifetime this weekend, all because I wanted her to come to visit me. I am heartbroken sick and lonely. :down::bat:

What?? I would understand if there was a work or event commitment, but really? Seriously?? Puh-lease.

I don't know you, but I'll come visit you. :)

[phidgt]

Is it just me or are people becoming so involved with themselves that they are no longer capable of having any compassion towards others?

To add to the pile of poo that I am currently going through, my dog (see profile pic) got hit by car the other day. My boyfriend didn't see it happen, however, he heard the impact and the dog scream. He ran out to the road, but couldn't find the dog. Our neighbor, who was standing by the side of the road at the time, saw the whole thing. When asked if she knew where our dog was she said she got hit and flew into the bushes. Then she just walked away and went back to her house. So, my boyfriend was left searching the ditch along the road looking for the dog. Our neighbor has a dog. Would it have been too much to ask for her to help? Needless to say, the driver didn't stop either. Is this normal human behavior these days?

Our dog is doing much better now. She's a resilient little thing.

[arista]

Is it just me or are people becoming so involved with themselves that they are no longer capable of having any compassion towards others?

To add to the pile of poo that I am currently going through, my dog (see profile pic) got hit by car the other day. My boyfriend didn't see it happen, however, he heard the impact and the dog scream. He ran out to the road, but couldn't find the dog. Our neighbor, who was standing by the side of the road at the time, saw the whole thing. When asked if she knew where our dog was she said she got hit and flew into the bushes. Then she just walked away and went back to her house. So, my boyfriend was left searching the ditch along the road looking for the dog. Our neighbor has a dog. Would it have been too much to ask for her to help? Needless to say, the driver didn't stop either. Is this normal human behavior these days?

Our dog is doing much better now. She's a resilient little thing.

I am sooo sorry..dog's our like part of the family

[arista]

Road construction...UGH!! I have seen more orange barrels in one particular highway I travel daily than I care to for a long time. They were supposed to be done with construction a while ago...

[Kim L.]

So sorry to hear about your dog, Phidget but good to hear she's feeling better. A pile poo on the uncaring driver & neighbor.

[Kim L.]

(((((Poisonbat)))))

Hang in there.

[Anton177]

No frustration for me. No job yet, but I'm flying back to England tomorrow and with everything sorted I feel like I have a clean mind.

A long time comin'. :wink2:

[Patricia A]

I simply can not take much more. My daughter decided to give me the verbal bashing of a lifetime this weekend, all because I wanted her to come to visit me. I am heartbroken sick and lonely. :down::bat:


What?? I would understand if there was a work or event commitment, but really? Seriously?? Puh-lease.

I don't know you, but I'll come visit you. :)

If I bring coffee can I come over too?
((((poisonbat))))

[phidgt]

No frustration for me. No job yet, but I'm flying back to England tomorrow and with everything sorted I feel like I have a clean mind.

A long time comin'. :wink2:

Maybe a change of scenery is all you need.

[Anton177]

I came back to England in the middle of July and it took me two months to land a job at a new opening at a Weatherspoons bar. The job isn’t fantastic – it’s hard work for minimum pay, I’m working at the bottom of the line so I have a handful of people to answer to and tell me what to do (and of course, that means I’m sent doing three things at once), the people getting drunk on a weekend make you question the whole integrity of just what the **** people think they are (a very depressing a pessimistic atmosphere to fill your head with while working) and now, the real kick in the balls, I’m getting barely any hours. Weatherspoons bought out a bar called Chicago Rock. The employees that were still under contract from Chicago (around 5-8 people) are entitled for Weatherspoons to take them on and give them a contracted minimum amount of hours. Around 30 of us were recruited as staff for the new bar and we are not contracted to minimum hours. Effectively, this means that the Chicago staff are getting 25-40 hours a week each, which leaves the rest of us with barely anything to work at. I’ve been given 11 hours this week, and with the boss still out and a relief manager to fill the gap, I can’t do a damn thing about it – not even moan! I know for a fact there are other employees that come up and say “I can’t work this day / I can only work this day from this day / I can’t do this shift”... while I am standing there saying I can work anytime, any day for as long as they like.
Now, if they thought I was **** at the job, which I doubt is the case, I can’t really see any objection from their point of view to refuse me the hours and give the people who are rejecting shifts twice the amount of hours I have. I really don’t know how to deal with this. The only thing I can do is stick it out and wait until I can talk to someone who can tell me if: 1) I have a job, or: 2) If I have a job worth sticking around for. There is the prospect of going and getting another job, but just where the **** would I be getting that? The next thing is I have finally bought a motorbike. I bought it from a lazy, fat ****er for a grand who let me into a whole world of **** after purchase. I took it into a garage for a service and a week later it’s costing me £450 to replace the oil tank, rectifier, battery and labour. Guess what? It still wasn’t working. Now it’s sitting in the shop waiting for the techs to take another look while I am left waiting wondering what is wrong with it, how long it will take, and how much they are going to come back to me with a cost to fix the ****ing thing they should have done in the first place. And in the meantime, I have no bike. Fantastic! Next up, my Father is losing his job in November. So I owe £2000 to him from the bike, while I have no money to give with the crock of **** that my job is turning into, and while he is worrying if he is going to be able to live until Christmas. In turn, then, things are looking just ****ing great right now – life is a wonderful thing.

[Spideyman]

Am sorry to hear all this news Anton. Will keep you in good thoughts and hope the future will bring about the changes you so desires. For now, try to make the best of what is dealt to you. The job market is ruff everywhere. Just try to show them you are the best worker. I wish you inner peace.

[JohnDalglish]

Hi,

(((((Anton)))))

'All things must pass'.

Long days and pleasant nights

[SKfan2006]

well my co-worker thinks that i am a very angry and dangorous person just because i like horror and haven't been 'saved'. like i got really mad at him last friday because he has been doing nothing but preaching and preaching for the past month and i couldn't take it anymore. and because of that outburst it confirmed to him that i am a evil person. since my mom is our superviser i know everything on his side of the spectrum. he thinks i'm evil because i read SK(would love to see him post his mean comments of mr. King's works here so that he can get a taste of his own medicine) and that when i've told him i dis-like certain people out there he takes it to mean i hate them and want to kill them and so thinks i want to kill him and that i'm evil just because i don't see my dad all the time. well he saw his dad all the time and he became a drunkard and druggie before being 'saved'. but that guy is so contridicary since he loves jesus and hates jews which jesus was so if he hates jews that means he hates jesus. and he puts down all catholics even though cathlicism is part of his own religion which is christianity. and he hates muslims but doesn't hate the president even though he's muslim! and he doesn't believe in love and only in arranged marriage since arranged love is god's love even though his marriage wasn't arranged by anyone. and he was really mad when he went to six flags over texas last saturday and saw lots of muslims. and he went to a anti-gay rally and claims the gays attacked him and the other preachers at the rally and he didn't even have a scratch on him.

glad to get that out.

[Terry B]

Please SKFAN2006 - stop calling Obama a Muslim. You couldn't be more wrong. That's the kind of misinformation we don't need. He's a Christian (and a good one) and I, for one, don't want to hear any more of this Muslim crap.

[arista]

Glad this one came up at the right time...I am frustrated today, because people can just be so rude sometimes and not think a thing about it.

[malarabid]

It's not the most serious problem, but it's still frustrating:

I wanted to read From A Buick 8, so I ordered it from Amazon. I was excited to see the package at my door today, but a bit astounded when I opened it and found a book titled Wanton Angel instead. Did I make a mistake? The packing slip confirms that the package supposedly contains From A Buick 8. They did it.

[marew1]

:sad: My eyes are bleary today. It is either my medication or eye drops I'm using as this doesn't happen all the time.

[Nero]

I will vent the frustration of typing with a busted hand.

I've nothing else juicy at the moment.

[LadyPain]

Please SKFAN2006 - stop calling Obama a Muslim. You couldn't be more wrong. That's the kind of misinformation we don't need. He's a Christian (and a good one) and I, for one, don't want to hear any more of this Muslim crap.

I've worked with and for Muslims, and they were true gentlemen. Personally, I couldn't care less if the American President was Christian, Muslim, or liked to paint his backside purple and sing karaoke every Tuesday night.

MY frustration is seeing Muslims trashed as a whole, when it is only a select few who do evil in the name of however they have chosen to believe their religion.

[marew1]

I will vent the frustration of typing with a busted hand.

I've nothing else juicy at the moment.

That's a bummer. Hope you heal quickly!

[plgordon]

Anton, That is a sh#*y month to be sure. Keep your chin up is probably not what you want to hear!! Although that may be the best advice for you (not that you were looking for any!). I would like to say that I had a very similar experience with a promoter. We were doing a regular gig at a place and packing it. No question we were making an "s" load of money for this place. Then our man calls us and says all the dates we were scheduled to play there for the next three months are canceled. He gave us a handfull of excuses that all sounded pretty fishy! None of us bought it. We don't use him any more!!!!

As for having a broken heart......... It hurts bad!!! and the worst part is nobody feels like you do, and therefore they don't care. Makes the world seem cruel an insensitive. I do know how you feel! I once suffered a ctastrophic broken heart, The good news is around two years later things did get alot better. Moving on is tough but we both know it needs to be done.

One last thing, and I want to apologize in advance for the way this may sound to everyone but especialy to you Anton................
If You can play guitar, you will find a girl!
Good luck Bro, I hope you never need to Vent/post again

[Bad Bear]

I told the first guy, before the aggravated tech support, when he kept insisting "you can fix this. Just go pay the $208.28 in fees that will bring your account back to the positive."

I told him, "Look. I feel like I'm talking to a piece of wood, and I can't continue this conversation without being physically in your presence. I need to see your neck in front of me if I'm gonna listen to one more moment of drivel on how to solve "my" problem...

They ended up refunding every fee too. Mmmm, Money. ;)

The last one was like, "look, just so you don't have to call aggrivated technical support again and spend an hour on the phone with the, over thirty five dollars, I'm just gonna refund it now, I'm gonna write in our branch, and write it as 'bank error'.

Yeah, maybe it's only $35 dollars, and I make tipple that an hour sometimes... but it's MY thirty five dollars. And blood will flow over trying to take what isn't yours from me, buddy. Count on it.

My goodness, we are full of ourselves, aren't we? Why don't you just do your anti-social and egocentric stuff and leave everyone on here out of it?

Yawn.

[Bad Bear]

I don't know if any of you will need this thread but dammit I do. It's been a real dusey of a week, an act of pure human f**kery, and if I don't do something about letting it out then I may take it out in a less desirable method.

I am living over in a country called Cyprus right now and away from my home of England in the UK. I've been here for 4 months playing in a guitar duo with my friend who lives out here. We had it going real good for two months, we signed with an entertainment agency over here that got us all of our gigs and took a cut and all we had to do was show up and play. We had good nights, bad nights; we got paid, and a pretty decent chunk of change. All of a sudden this bossman agent turns around and says he has us no work. I don't understand that, since so many places loved us and would be happy to have us back - he just doesn't have a pluck where to put us since he doesn't know where to put his finger unless it's up his ass. He apparently has over 300 acts signed under him and they're all getting laid off, too. What a kick in the balls.

So if it wasn't so bad that I fled country to try and pull myself together and maybe spend some time relaxing, only to get a good thing going and have the dark man walk on down the road and have me lose my job with the words: "Oh no, you didn't think you'd sort yourself out that easy, did you now, kiddo?" - if that wasn't good enough, my friend gets offered a bar job and takes it. Now, most of me doesn't mind, since I'd do the same thing in his position. His girlfriend gets in from England tonight and he wants to take her travelling so he needs the cash. Okay, I get that, but I sure feel left in the dark. "Okay, that didn't work, see ya!". He comes in today which is the first I've seen of him in two days and had the nerve to tell me to look for a job since he didn't want to do the two gigs we have left a week. Okey dokey. A-ok. Friggin A. Super.

Now the real irony of the month. I loved this one, happened not even an hour ago. Real side tickler, this one. I'd like to say right off that I'm awful with people - I'm not a social butterfly, as you may have already guessed. I thought I would be pretty bad at doing a bar job and would enjoy it even less, but I thought I'd bite the bullet. So I rode down to a bar on the main strip with a "Staff Wanted" sign on it and asked the owner if he needed anyone. He said he had a girl coming in tonight, he was okay right now, but then passingly offered me a job for 600-700 euros a month. Alright, sounds good pops, what's the catch? The job is being a PR, and for those of you who don't know, it's standing outside the bar and acting real nicely to the couples and the families and the girls wearing short skirts and telling them to come and waste their money on your particular bar. I have always loathed the ideal of that job, and pitied the saps who do it, but dammit it's a job I can't do. I'm not a people person, that's why I read books for God's sake, and if I somehow managed to work up both the balls and the morals to take the job I'd probably get sacked within two days for not being any good at it. Call it social retardation, I don't know.

On top of this I'm a psychological mess who hasn't been able to find a girl for the past 2 years while I still find the time to dream (and wake up not knowing how to get out of bed) about the girl that broke my heart two years ago, of which I've been trying to come to terms with ever since. It's a pathetic excuse of a broken man probably trying to look for sympathy and lick his wounds so he can excuse himself from doing absolutely anything comparable to a life, and I've stripped down my ego and pride just to say it. I don't know where I'm going and I cannot abide not having a plan, I have no clue of anywhere remote I'd even like to aim, I don't know what I want and I'm sure as hell not happy, and for what feels like forever I'm left with the feeling that the ball is not in my court to play. I could have had a lot worse things happen to me in my short life but at times I think I wasn't supposed to do anything else but get my hopes up and fail to mould into the pessimistic cynic I'm becoming who is void of everything that people claim is important to a healthy life. Most of all I miss being able to wake up after a nightmare and have someone there to remind me it was just a dream. Hell, if I am at the point to write such an awful line as that, then I really need some help.

Oh, and after finishing The Stand today I have no more books left to read. I may finally go insane.



If anyone else has the urge to press their fists into the keyboard instead of the wall, the stone is yours to carve.

Keep your chin up, Anton177. You sound a lot like me when I was younger. I was in a band that couldn't get enough gigs, and I even went busking on numerous occasions to help buy food and stuff when times were tight. Actually, I really enjoyed the busking as a) it got me out of the house, b) it usually made me a few pounds when I needed it, and c) it was good practice.

Ending a much loved book can be a bit of a trauma, and sadly there is nothing in SK's catalogue I can think of that's quite like it. Are you a member of a library? In the UK, you can usually take out seven books at a time, which is a great way to experiment with authors without the financial pitfalls.

For human comapny, have you considered doing volunteer work? I'm in an employent blackspot, and am finding voluntary work a life saver!

[SKfan2006]

Please SKFAN2006 - stop calling Obama a Muslim. You couldn't be more wrong. That's the kind of misinformation we don't need. He's a Christian (and a good one) and I, for one, don't want to hear any more of this Muslim crap.

well i've heard him called a muslim for so long it's stuck. besides i was venting myself so when you vent sometimes you accidently use false remembering or don't remember the facts sometimes. besides i don't care what religion he is since i won't like him unless his politics turn out to be like FDR's who i like.

[Anton177]

Hmm, well following my last post, I got fired on Saturday night!

Happy days.

[Spideyman]

Hmm, well following my last post, I got fired on Saturday night!

Happy days.

Anton, sorry to hear that, but try to stay positive. All things happen for a reason. Maybe a better job awaits you soon. Will keep you to good vibes.

[Terry B]

Hmm, well following my last post, I got fired on Saturday night!

Happy days.

Oh Anton - so sorry AWSS. Keep the faith.

[SKfan2006]

here's something new that's maddening. a friend at work told me this happened to her BIL very recently. her BIL was originally from Tanzania and is happily married with a kid on the way. well the other day he had just got grocery's and had a lot of money to pay the bills when this gang pulled their car in front of him. they got out and practically pulled him out of the car and started beating him up. they were punching him in the face and kicking him in the face when he got to the ground. they tryed to stab him in the neck but thankfully they only got his hand. they then took all his money and groceries and even his cell phone so he couldn't call his wife or the police. then he went and instead of driving to the hospital he DROVE BACK HOME!!! you would think his first thought would to get to a doctor instead of home so his wife could see him all bloody.

this road he was on is a pretty dark road and not well traveled. and this wasn't a hate crime since the gang was black and mexican. and they never attempted to hurt him anywhere except in the face and they didn't stop until he said god help me. and he's a skinny guy to boot so he's really lucky to be alive. and even though he's from africa he's never seen fights as bad as this and africa is mostly a warzone.

what has this country gone? why can't people just get along? why do some citizens have to resort to beating others up and stealing?

[malarabid]

I can't believe this has happened two times in a row to me over the same order. Yes, I wrote about it the 1st time it happened in this thread -- I ordered From A Buick 8 from Amazon and got a romance novel instead -- so they sent a replacement right out, and lo and behold, I got another romance novel. Is it a coincidence it's by the same author, Lois Lael someone-or-another?! :laugh:

They sent me this nice reply with interesting English, obviously not totally a form letter:

Hello,

I'm sorry to hear the replacement book had the same problem as your first order. This usually doesn't happen. Since it's likely another replacement would arrive incorrect, I won't trouble you with another order.

I've requested a full refund to your credit card in the amount of $7.99 You'll see the refund in the next few days. Please go ahead and return the wrong item--we'll pay for return shipping.

To return the item, first click the following link to print your return mailing label:

(redacted by me)

While we investigate the problems you experienced, the from a Buick 8 will be unavailable for purchase from Amazon.com. However, you may be able to purchase it from other marketplace sellers on the Amazon.com website. If you see this item offered by Amazon.com again in the future, you'll know we've fixed the problem.

Again, I'm really sorry about this. We look forward to seeing you again soon.

Please let us know if this e-mail resolved your question:

If yes, click here:
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Please note: this e-mail was sent from an address that cannot accept incoming e-mail.

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Guess I'll just have to go buy it locally now that I'm over the flu and can get out of bed.

[Anton177]

I can't believe this has happened two times in a row to me over the same order. Yes, I wrote about it the 1st time it happened in this thread -- I ordered From A Buick 8 from Amazon and got a romance novel instead -- so they sent a replacement right out, and lo and behold, I got another romance novel. Is it a coincidence it's by the same author, Lois Lael someone-or-another?! :laugh:

They sent me this nice reply with interesting English, obviously not totally a form letter:

Hello,

I'm sorry to hear the replacement book had the same problem as your first order. This usually doesn't happen. Since it's likely another replacement would arrive incorrect, I won't trouble you with another order.

I've requested a full refund to your credit card in the amount of $7.99 You'll see the refund in the next few days. Please go ahead and return the wrong item--we'll pay for return shipping.

To return the item, first click the following link to print your return mailing label:

(redacted by me)

While we investigate the problems you experienced, the from a Buick 8 will be unavailable for purchase from Amazon.com. However, you may be able to purchase it from other marketplace sellers on the Amazon.com website. If you see this item offered by Amazon.com again in the future, you'll know we've fixed the problem.

Again, I'm really sorry about this. We look forward to seeing you again soon.

Please let us know if this e-mail resolved your question:

If yes, click here:
(redacted)
If not, click here:
(redacted)

Please note: this e-mail was sent from an address that cannot accept incoming e-mail.

To contact us about an unrelated issue, please visit the Help section of our web site.

Best regards,

Aswin C.
Amazon.com
We're Building Earth's Most Customer-Centric Company


Guess I'll just have to go buy it locally now that I'm over the flu and can get out of bed.

Nonono, do you mind used books? If you want it brand new then okay, go into town. But if you don't mind some unique oldies or even pretty good (possibly brand new) copies then use Amazon - but don't go through Amazon themselves, and look for the "Buy new or used from $x.xx from xx sellers". Easy as pie. I always buy second hand and they're cheap as hell - Amazon is fantastic for this with 3rd party sellers, miles better than eBay.

[Jaedpact]

I wonder if there comes a time in a persons life in which he or she forgets how to pray. Is there soemthing in us that can break? That fades into the surrounding atmosphere, maybe through hands and into steering wheels, or through the top of the head into the sky next to the nitrogen. I think I am broken, my pieces are different ages and i have nothing left but hope and responcibility.

[LadyPain]

This morning I went into the kitchen and saw a sopping wet dishtowel on the counter, sitting in a puddled of drying milk. Shall we just say it was a mess to be reckoned with? I love the dude, but I swear he is not trying to make like any easier for me.:dunno:

[Anton177]

I wonder if there comes a time in a persons life in which he or she forgets how to pray. Is there soemthing in us that can break? That fades into the surrounding atmosphere, maybe through hands and into steering wheels, or through the top of the head into the sky next to the nitrogen. I think I am broken, my pieces are different ages and i have nothing left but hope and responcibility.

I had a similar experience a while ago. I am/was mostly a man of logic and science but when things happen that you just can't understand or explain through rationality and reason, you start wondering: "What now? What is left? How do you go on from this?". The best metaphor I came up for it was living through science and logic was like living on a flat world - not a sphere. I do embrace the stranger elements in life, just like in SK's novels when exploring supernatural phenomena and un-materialistic ideals, even fate and such, but at the time I rejected it all. When I came to that point, like reaching the end of the flat world, I thought it was situations like that which make people turn to religion or faith. Simply put, when you can't rely on anything solid and you don't feel like you can depend on anything, you just put your faith in, albeit blindly at times, in something else that may or may not be there just because it feels to you that it is the only thing that is left. The irrational because rational - perhaps this can work visa versa, which is how it could apply to you. "Is there something in us that can break? That fades into the surrounding atmosphere..." ; yes, I very much believe there is, and when it happens you realise how fragile that bridge was. It is a bitter, bitter taste and knowledge to have, but typically and as cliche goes, this is life. If a bridge does break, it can be rebuilt, or you may even find another one. I think this is what hope really means. Things happen that make us question everything, but it's not the event that has happened to make you question it that is important, it is what you do next. I believe everything in life is down to circumstance, situations, variables... the chaos theory for me is that perfect little niche between science, the supernatural, faith and fate. Sometimes things look wild, impossible, inexplicable and unable to be explained, but somewhere there is a pattern... even if it just takes time and routine to specialise it. It's a very psychologically based area, but everything with people is. Sometimes you need to read into it, and sometimes you should take your head away from looking into the metaphor of a book and lift it up to look around - bring yourself back to earth. The post you made seemed very pessimistic, and I can relate, and I think you should stay like that for a while to lick whatever wounds you may have. It is important. But always remember there is a way to move on and continue, even if it is not easy. There is always something there, be it a God, faith, logic, science, friends, love, empathy for others, moral and principle for whatever man may be... there is always something, even if it takes a long while, for you to want to take that risk again - for you to want to keep breathing.


This morning I went into the kitchen and saw a sopping wet dishtowel on the counter, sitting in a puddled of drying milk. Shall we just say it was a mess to be reckoned with? I love the dude, but I swear he is not trying to make like any easier for me.:dunno:

You would miss it if it wasn't there. I know it's a crappy thing to say, and ask him to help out more, but boyish traits like that can make you smile sometimes. Give him a slap and then smile. :grinning:



On a personal note things haven't been getting any better, it seems something new and bad happens each day - as if I were being given hurdles to jump over as some sort of a sick test. I am certain I will pull through. There are times I question it, and it may be hard as hell... but dammit, I'll get there, even if it takes a fight.

[Jaedpact]

That was a truely fantastic reponce. I thank you for taking the time to share that with me. When i reread my post I can see the pessimism, but as I wrote it I could feel the hope. And responcibility. I can and will overcome this, but it certainly helps to get such profound input from a complete stranger.

[Mookie]

Guess I'll just have to go buy it locally now that I'm over the flu and can get out of bed.[/QUOTE]

Sorry to hear you had the flu. Glad you are feeling better. My daughters get at least one or two whopper stomach virus's each flu season that they so kindly share with me, so I can relate. Hope you have better luck obtaining a copy of a Buick 8.