hello everyone. well i am brought here today VERY ashamed of myself today. I am on vacation and at this water park and decided to try and go on a slide. its a good height too. so when finally reaching the top i completley locked up and said No. i cant do this. I dont know why either. i mean i hate rollercoasters with a passion but slides arent usually a problem. after seeing small kids and older people coming out happy, i simply walked away with my tail between my legs and head held down. i tried talking to my sister about it but she seemed pretty upset i didnt do it and my parents tell me its normal. im just EXTREMELY upset now and just wanna go home. is anyone else like this too and if not what is your fear?
Don't be too hard on yourself... and NEVER hang your head in shame. Fear can come up at any time, when doing things for the first time or the hundredth time. It just wasn't the right time to go down the slide this time, and there's no shame in learning about yourself in that way. Chalk it up to a learning experience... and see where you're at the next time a slide comes up. If you speedball down the next slide, that's great! But if you never attempt it again, you've learned something about yourself, and that's equally important. You'll appreciate the successes, any success really, by seeing how you've grown from the not-so-successful times. Be excellent to yourself, man.
I have always loved waterparks and amusement parks from my early childhood, including roller coasters and big slides. The only thing I can think of at the moment that might be something similar is the thought of eating something gross as in a contest. I always thought some of the Survivor reality show looked interesting from a competing perspective except when they do the eating gross stuff contest. I'm out on that one.
One of my favorite song lyrics ever is from a tune by New Model Army called "Purity." The line is this: "I don't give a damn that I never will be worthy/Fear is the only enemy that I still know.
Fear to me is just that - an enemy. Yes, sometimes it can be healthy, but it can also be very destructive. You cannot allow fear to stop you from living. I believe that it is something to be faced and overcome, if possible. A slide - well, keep it in perspective. It isn't a terribly important thing. If you choose never to go down a slide again, it isn't going to ruin your life.
Letting go of fear - it can be a difficult thing, perhaps the MOST difficult thing. But it can set you free. Sometimes, you just have to acknowledge and accept it, then jump. I know it is a lot easier to say these things than to do them. But if you can get past that moment - the one that paralyzes you and makes you feel like you'll surely puke or pass out - then you can face down that fear and conquer it.
When I was in college the first time, many years ago, I took a rock-climbing class, which I loved. I had a great instructor, too, a man in his 70's who had been climbing most of his life. Of the 25 or so students in the class, more than half said they were there because they were afraid of heights. Now, the instructor understood this, so he took things pretty slow. On one memorable day, we went out to learn how to belay each other, and how to fall. The first falls were from a height of maybe 4 feet, then about 6 or 8 feet, then 12. You don't actually fall that far; your partner, the one doing the belay, generally catches you within a foot or two. It's easy. And 12 feet isn't very high...until you're up there on the rock, looking down, and you have to let go and trust that the other person will stop you before you hit the ground. I'm personally not afraid of heights, so it didn't bother me. But I could see why it might bother someone else. Some of my classmates were really scared. But they got through it. And most of them, on the last day, when we climbed up a cliff and rappelled back down - including a free rappel (hanging in midair) had a blast, and had lost their fear.
If the heights are what bothers you (I'm guessing that might be it, because of the roller coasters), something like this could be very helpful, provided you have the right instructor. My personal experience has also been that once you get past a couple of your fears, it becomes easier. Start small, and work your way up.
And it really does not matter, not one whit, what other people think. What matters is your opinion of yourself. Fear is hard on that; it makes you feel ashamed or inadequate, which is why moving through and past it can be so powerful.