I know that I am a sad person. I know my posts show that and the only reason why they are is because I am simply seeking advice for my problems. But I think that I am upsetting some people, so I don't think I will be posting anymore about my problems anymore. Instead I am going to go seek help for myself and not have to use others as a crutch. I love you all and I appreciate everyone's advice and love. I am going to go to the doctor soon to see if there is a medicine for anxiety seeing as I am already on anti depressants. Also, I am going to start reading a book you all might know. It is called the purpose driven life. I hope that I might find my way back to understanding my lord and savior. Again, I appreciate everyone here for taking the time to listen to me and hope you all will have a great day. Thanks.